Thursday, March 24, 2011

Scholar Me?

The long wait makes me feel un easy and stressed out. Since college I have been waiting for the time that somebody will call and said.... Congratulations, The scholarship is granted to you! Last year was a desperate attempt to apply for the grant but unfortunately due to a technology mishapped I did not recieve any notice of the schedule of exam, without chance to defend myself I patiently waited for the next open of application. It is very ironic because now I appreciate my bad luck last year. What if at the time of the "Tsunami Disaster" i was there, what will happen to my family. Thank God I did not persue last year. But this year I am not holding back, pumped up and seeing ahead. Its been 2 months of supense now, have submitted my application 3 weeks early, passed the english proficiency exam, interviewed by a pannel and now waiting patiently, nervously for the result of the interview. I can not help the feeling of my stomach turning upside down everytime I open my e-mail and look for the anticipated e-mail. My heart beats fast whenever my phone rings in the middle of the day... and see the familiar number of JICC... but my heart beat worsen and my head begans to hurt with a little bit of disappointment when I realize that they are only asking for my missing datas. What should I do? should I aske them if I passed or not? I really don't know what to do...... still waiting for the expected announcement. Hoping to hear the right words I've been dreading to here for 7 years now....