Wondering

All my 25 years I thought I was leaving a normal life and I blend in with the people around me. It takes one honest and sincere friend co-worker to tell me that I am not normal and I am one of the weird ones that I thought were normal to me. All the while I thought that people are just rude. It was a touching and awakening conversation that made me think.... am I really like that? I pity the people that surround me, and I'm grateful because all these years they have been there for me and understood my nature. I really thought I was a cast out but, well, no I was not I am different and I felt secure that I was left alone, "suffer in silence type" - Bella. I was hurt by my co-workers comment but ignored it during the conversation, I even tried to hide my reaction to the words, I really don't know If I hide it that well, you know my face is very expressive. It gave me two hours to think it through, at the end it didn't hurt so much but I felt happy because I was Unique, I did not fit in, therefor I am not oblige to pretend that I like them and I should go with them, I like it that way.

Now I know what is my husband trying to tell me about my mood, I am hard to keep up with, I have lots of friends but I do not spend time with them that much not unless I was invited. I kind of forced my husband to leave the way that I do, like the way my dad forced my mom to live like he do, I think I got this traits from my dad. But I thank my mom because it balance the whole thing and I do not act the way dad act "obsessive, compulsive". No offense I love him, he is a shoulder to cry on, even though he does not show any emotions.

Maybe this is the way creative persons think, I am creative well not developed because I was afraid to object with my father and now not even thinking about it because my life now belongs to my babbies. I really love them and I give my whole perfect self to them.

If I am going to die early I wish that they may leave a good life like just now. I am very much afraid to die, not because they will miss me or no body will take care of them but I feared that my husband and my parents will fight over them. All this problems I am suffering I block it with my unique ability, "I Create" thats my power, but my kryptonite always caught me I loose control and emotions flow and escape my chest like a wild alien predator.

Yes, I was the lucky one, be bale to block it all out but I have no big GB no storage left and so I burst into an explosive, thats my kryptonite.

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Harry Potter Half-Blood Prince

Hey Harry Potter fans.... Remember the date!!! July 17, 2009... Its so near!!!

New Moon

NOVEMBER 20, 2009 is the date all Twilight Saga fans should watch out. Its the date of the world wide viewing of the New Moon movie. This movie is all about "right and wrong" for Edward. Is it right to be with her, the girl he loves, so fragfile so human or is it wrong? As I read the book of Stephenie Meyer "New Moon" I fill misserable too, being left by the one I love but then I somehow felt a dislike with Bella's actions, hurting another heart, a heart that expecting something in return that she knows she can not give him anything. This film will start the love triangle that brew in Forks.